95 - 60

Normal Blood Pressure rate according to medical world is :

120 - 80

I got mine checked today and voila.......

Systolic : 95
Diastolic : 65

huwaaaaaaaaah...kacau....and this is rather a good typical day for me.


Hari ini aku bertekad untuk :

Jalan Pagi setiap hari (mungkin kecuali hari Sabtu dan Minggu kali yeeeeeee heheheh) di Taman Suropati or Taman Menteng.

Dengan target:

1. improve my blood pressure rate
2. lebih sehat tentunya
3. menurunkan beberapa kilogram lagi dari badan ini

Doakaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnn......................... :D

no longer

I've learned from childhood that friends may come and go.
Those who still stay throughout the journey are truly precious.

as for you...who once called yourself sister...

thank you for showing me your true heart
i am blessed that you are no longer a friend of mine

always on your side

a verse from "always on your side" by Sheryl Crow and Sting

my new favorite tune

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Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin’ me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wandering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side
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last few days, i feel flat for most of the time during the day.
Biasanya, for those who know me well, aku sering terseret yang namanya mood swings.
Apakah hormon (let's blame it on the hormones huh :D) di tubuhku ini lagi liburan ntah kemana. Sehingga aku pun juga libur dari riak2 perasaan yang mengisi hari2ku berbulan2 ini.

Manis,pahit,senang,sedih,kesal,biasa,gembira,kecewa, tidakperduli,perduli,sayang,benci,rindu,kangen,marah.
Semua rasa yang membuatku tersenyum, yang membuat airmataku mengalir,
yang membuat hatiku perih, yang membuatku bersyukur karena Tuhan memberiku
kesempatan untuk merasa, yang membuat dadaku terasa sesak, yang membuatku merasa lega, yang membuatku merasa aku dicintai, yang menyadarkanku betapa aku mencinta.

Last night, just before i dozed off to sleep, that little feeling which was filling my days before emerged.

Was it you that kept me wandering through this life?
When you know that I was always on your side

Ah well, this is weekend....i am going to enjoy it......
Happy Weekend everyone........

Surabaya - Business Trip

Starting from May 24th to 28th 2007, i went to Surabaya for business trip.
My ongoing project is in the phase of Final Preparation for Go-Live next July 2007.
Thus, there i was in Surabaya for Training Support.

24 May 2007

Left home around 7.30 am to Soekarno-Hatta International Airport. My flight was 9.00 AM JKT-SUB with GA 306. Arrived at Juanda Surabaya Airport at 10.15 AM. Mr. Edwin Sutresman (DKSH T Sby BM) has been waiting and we went straight to DKSH Tunggal Surabaya Branch at Rungkut area.

SD Module EUT for East Indonesia region has started from 9AM with 10 participants coming from Surabaya,Malang, Manado, Makasar,Jogyakarta,Solo,Semarang,Balikpapan and Samarinda branches. First day training finished around 6 PM.

Then, Mr. Kholili (DKSH T Sby Deputy BM) drove me to Novotel Hotel. I was informed that reservation was made for me. I checked in at Front Desk and tadaaa......my name WAS NOT there in the reservation. What the$%^&*()? after lots of phone calls here and there, i found out, that the secretary booked Somerset Hotel instead!!! oh dear!!! please deh, i was exhausted and expecting to rest in the next upcoming minutes.......Luckily, Mr. Kholili was kind enough to return to Novotel and drove me to Somerset.

My relatives from my Dad's side live in Surabaya, they could not wait to see me. Since it's been a while since i visited Surabaya. They arrived at Somerset shortly after i checked in. I took a quick shower and we went out for dinner at nearby Pujasera. Surabaya is a haven for great food indeed!! Tahu Campur Lamongan, Semanggi (Semanggi leaves, and special sauce made from tapioka), Mie Kluntung, Es Tape Degan yumyumyumm. Afterwards, i was back at hotel.

Arghh...long day indeed....

Click here for Day 1 Pics

25 May 2007

After breakfast at hotel, errghh so so breakfast. Somerset definitely need to improve their quality of food. Not much interesting happen today. I am happy to notice that training participants are quite receptive and proactive.

26 May 2007

It's Saturday!!! Weekend!! Yet, i would be spending it at work. I don't mind, this is one of most interesting phase of the project.
Ko Januar and Kong Fantjhiang picked me at at Rungkut office around 6 PM. We went to their house at Mulyosari area. My beloved Kong Fantjiang (He's my grandmother's brother in law. His wife is my grandma's younger sister), prepared Pangsit Mie specially for me. This family were in food business for a long time. I remember the old days when they were still living in Probollingo. They run small restaurant and every year during school holiday, with my family i visited them. And always fun spending time with them. We went for Jagung bakar after that and visit Ci Inneke in Argomulyo area. I was very happy to spend time with them.

Click here for Day 3 Pics

27 May 2007

Happy Sunday everyone!! Today, training session ended around 3.30. The ladies would like to do some shopping. I think it's ok, since we've covered most of the training materials and tomorrow we'll be able to wrap all things up.

Spend the evening with the relatives again, dinner and coffee at Tunjungan Plaza

Click here for Day 4 Pics


28 May 2007

Last day in Surabaya, check out from hotel early morning. Finalized the training, say goodbyes with the participants. It has been 5 great days spending time with them.
My flight was for 7 PM, i arrived at Juanda Airport around 5 minutes before 6 AM. Lucky me, Garuda offered to fly with the 6 PM flight, there were still seats available. Of course i said yes, they informed me that the 7 PM flight will be delayed 1.5 hourse...phiuuhhh..


Click her for Day 5 Pics

It has been a tiring trip, yet i did have lots of fun too.

Watch

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Watch your thoughts; they become words
Watch your words; they become actions
Watch your actions; they become habits
Watch your habits; they become character
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny

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mental illness

i am sick and tired of missing you....
love is a mental illness....

everybody asked "why do you love him?"
the one who doesn't bother to love you as much as you love him
the one who doesn't care when you're in pain for missing him

i dont know, i dont know how, i dont know why
i dont care either....i simply feel...

is it love? is it infatuation? or obsession?
maybe it is love......and infatuation....and obsession....
why does it has to be you?... i dont know...i dont care..i simply feel

aren't you sick and tired too?

why can we just love?
pure and simple love.....holding on to each other

i am ill.......for loving you
for wishing you are here with me now.....

Regret

There are four things you cannot recover:

the stone after the throw,
the word after it is said,
the occasion after the loss,
the time after its gone.

I read this in one of newly favored Indonesian columnist, Samuel Mulia. He quoted his friend in his weekly column of Kompas Daily. Read on from here.

So true, we might regret what we throw, words which we've said, occasion which we've loss and the time after it's gone.

We might regret for not doing things differently, might regret for saying the words or even regret for NOT saying it.

I am in constant learning for not regretting anything.
Everything must have it's purpose in our journey.

WHOPPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hallelujaaaah.......
We are blessed with WHOPPER - Burger King for dinner today.
For free of course, we are working to meet the deadlines.
So, the boss provides dinner. It has been weeks of this dinner pattern: Nasi Goreng Bakmi GM - Hoka Hoka Bento - KFC. And the round starts from Nasi Goreng again.

So...nyam nyam nyammmmmmmmmmmmm...ancur deh diet gue.....hahah

Early Birthday Present - The Witch of Portobello

My birthday is still 2 months away, and today i got a lovely surprise.

I have always treasured Paulo Coelho's writings, and definitely his new book "The Witch of Portobello" is on my top book hunting list.

I asked Caca to buy it for me at Borders,today she succesfully refused my money for the book. Instead, she gave it to me as early birthday present. Thanks a lot ya Ca!!

This has made my day indeed............

Soltius Team for DKSH Indonesia - Pegasus Roll Out

Soltius Team (not complete though, since some were in meetings) for DKSH Indonesia - SAP R/3 Pegasus Roll Out

Faces before GO- LIVE....let us see what happened after weekends at office and Post Go Live support.


Pictures: courtesy of Krisna Dipajana

Never Alone

Never Alone!

He can calm the troubled waters
When you walk in dark despair.
There is hope when you feel helpless
Knowing that the Lord is there...

Sharing in your sunshine moments
Or in valleys deep and wide,
He is always by your side.

There's no other friend so faithful
Through the sunshine and rain,
Through the teardrops and the laughter,
In your joy and in your pain.

We could never, ever thank Him
For His love He gives so free,
Never changing...never ending
Throughout all eternity.

Oh, the wonder of all wonders
As we live from day to day,
Knowing that we have a Father
Who is with us all the way.


Poet, Gertrude B. McClain

witch

seems like i need to retreat and gather my energy and wisdom.
lately i am feeling like a evil witch....easily snapped, high pitch voice produced from my throat. Even the sound of it disturbed me sometime. I said many things that should not be said.
I react with emotions that were not appropriate. I feel things that should not be felt anymore.

dear kriwil

my kriwil..........

should not be missing you......
should not be thinking of you.......
should not be hoping you'll be missing me too.....
should not be hoping you'll think of me too......

my heart cries.....

i miss you....
i am thinking of you......

overheat

my notebook's fan just RIP few days ago, and i was just too lazy to go to my office to get it fixed.
Since, i've tons to do at my project, i barely can even fulfill my basic needs to pee frequent enough.......either stuck in front of the overheated notebook, or running here and there attending calls.

And this notebook bener panas....as in panas..i can barely place my hand on top of the harddisc area. So, walau hari ini kerjaan setinggi mount everest, i went to office anyway, daripada meledak kan. Sampai kantor, gak ada spare part, service ke service center kelamaan. I need my notebook to work.

And berhubung akan dicariin dulu spare part fan nya, sementara, i have to use "Notebook Cooler Pad"buset deh...tebel bener..........walo lumayan banget sih...but..gak asik aja dehhhhhhhhhhhhh


blaah....overheated.!!!!!!!!!!!
my brain overheated too......2 plus straight weeks leaving work after 8 or 9 pm.
bed-bathroom-car-office-car-bathroom-bed, that is my cycle of life these days......
although i like these period of phase in a project....the most interesting ;)
tapi basi juga ya.....ah well.....I am blessed.....

The Keys to My Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Why Should I Cry for you?

Under the dog star sail
Over the reefs of moonshine
Under the skies of fall
North, north west, the stones of Faroe

Under the Artic fire
Over the seas of silence
Hauling on frozen ropes
For all my days remaining
But would north be true?

All colours bleed to red
Asleep on the ocean's bed
Drifting in empty seas
For all my days remaining

But would north be true?
Why should I?
Why should I cry for you?
Dark angels follow me
Over the godless sea
Mountains of endless falling
For all my days remaining

What would be true?

Sometimes I see your face
The stars seem to lose their place
Why must I think of you?
Why must I?
Why should I?

Why should I cry for you?
Why would you want me to?
And what would it mean to say
That, "I loved you in my fashion"?

What would be true?
Why should I?
Why should I cry for you?

carry me in your heart

kau hadir mengisi hariku, menguasai hatiku

kau akan selalu ada di hatiku.....

one thing i ask of you......carry me in your heart too always....

susahnya ngajarin teknologi

Sering kan kalo kita tepisah dengan teman/keluarga di suatu mall (contohnya, supermarket dimana begitu banyak lorong, begitu banyak manusia, dan suara). Pusing kan loe gimana caranya ketemuinnya. Kalo orangnya bisa pulang sendiri sih sebodo.....gak ketemu2 ya udah...ntar ketemu di rumah. Masalah selesai.
Masalahnya, kalo model kakek gue....doooh....bisa sejam sendiri deh muter2..dia nyariin, kita nyariin....belum lagi dia pun sangat suka menjelajahi lorong2 di supermarket, terutama bagian elektronik dan pertukangan. Yah, kayak anak kecil dilepas di bagian mainan gituu....
Bedanya,si opa....selain demen ngeliatin itu barang2 besi, juga sering muter nyari stock kacang ijonya, ato snack2..contoh kripik pisang.
Sehinggaaaa...yaaaahah susah deeehhh ketemunya.

Karena itu, gue berinisiatif untuuukk menghibahkan hp lama gue (secaaarrra gue dah bli baru gitu) kepadanya. Dengan tujuan, kalo ilang, bisa ditelpon.
Tantangan selanjutnya: bagaimana mengajarkan beliau menggunakan hp.
Niatan awal (menurut gue sih idealnya): beliau cukup diajarkan untuk :

1. Kalau bunyi, pencet tombol 'hijau' terus 'HALOOOOOO'
2. Kalau mau telpon, pencet tobol hijau lagi...disini gue bermaksud untuk, membuat default Last Call itu, ya salah satu dari family member gitu looo.
Atau, pencet nomor 2 - 9 (Speed dial gituuuu)
3. Kalau garis di sblah kanan, tinggal 2, artinya musti di charge.

Nah, sampai disini, bisa lah dilalui (walo dengan susah payah juga yaa)

Tetapi, secaaraaa kakek gue itu berasa dia adalah ahli alat2 elektronik dan pertukangan (post power syndrom sedikit, mentang2 jaman dulu, eh sampe skarang sih, dia bisa benerin alat2 elektronik sendiri...TAPI BUKAN HP lah yaaauuu)...jadi serasa dapet mainan baru.
Beliau tidak merasa cukup dengan ketiga hal diatas juga....
1. minta diajarin ngisi phonebook ......yah lama deh..dan sampe skarang belum berhasil jg.
2. minta diajarin gimana SMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wataaaaaa mau sms ama sapa cobaa..wong tememn2nya jg gak pake hp lah yaaaaa...misal ada yang punya, ya gue yakin anak cucunya, punya maksud dan tujuan yang sama dengan gue. Untuk yang satu ini....belum ada yang mau ngajarin hiahaihaihaiiah

Terus,kasian juga sih dia, karna anak cucunya gak ada yang cukup sabar untuk ngajarin bagaimana menggunakan hp. Jadilah dia membaca juga MANUAL BOOK ihihi....tapi yah mungkin kecanggihan ato terlalu ribet...
Karena keingintahuannya dia.........maka si opa membuat manual booknya sendiri...

A. Untuk menyalakan:
1. Pencet tombol di atas hp
B. Untuk menerima telpon
1. pencet tombol warna hijau kiri atas
c. Untuk menelpon
1. Pencet tombol *
2. Pencet tombol hijau
Maksudnya unlock keypad dulu geto
3. nah..ini nih dia masih stuck..karena gayanya mau punya phonebook
sedangkan menurut kita...udah deh...pencet aja nomor 2 (speed dial)
D. UNtuk membaca SMS
....aarrraaaaghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

gue juga pernah ngalami frustasi yang lebih parah saat oom gue (yang dah mayan uzur jugaa tuuuuuuuuu :P...maaap Paaaahhh hihi ) perlu buat presentasi (baca: dengan graphic and tables etc) di power point (NAH LOOHHHHHHHHHHH) hare geneee ...ngajarin bikin power point!!!!
terus..mungkin dia putus asa kali ye...stiap kali minta diajarin sama ponakan tercintanya .....gue frustasi dia ngak mudeng2, dia frustasi karna gue cepet2 dan galak ahaha....
akhirnya, dia hire asisten..lulusan Amrik......huaah...dari dulu kek pah!!


beneran deh...putus asa gue.....beginikah nasip menjadi tua?
syuliiitt banget untuk mengerti teknologi baru?

sick

gak enak banget sakit..............hari ini terdampar di rumah.........karena kemarin panas dan demam. Ngerinya kan DB, secara lagi musim gitu loooo......
Kemaren sore langsung ke dokter....dan dikasi obat, well Haleluya dah gak merasa demam lagi hari ini, cuma leher masih sakit aja buat nelen.

really Health is Wealth......
we must strive for health.....

ah ngaco....maapkan, ini dari kepala gue yang rada puyeng2

hmm, kayanya waktu yang tepat buat nyelesaikan NLP for dummies....agak2 slow nih blakangan...

Choose

Baru selesai dan sedang membaca The monk who sold his ferarri by Robin Sharma and Neuro Linguistic Programming for dummies jadi terbuka mata...kalo:

we are the master of our own destiny, the power of mind....gak maksud melupakan Tuhan..terlepas dari konsep religi dan keimanaan..gue tetep percaya kalo Tuhan lah Maha segala...yet...sbagai makhluk ciptaan Tuhan tertinggi..kita diberikan privilege untuk MEMILIH

contoh:
mengenai jodoh...kalau kita dalam hubungan terus gak jadi..dibilang gak jodoh.
Apakah bisa kita aminkan, suami/istri itu adalah jodoh yg Tuhan tentukan untuk kita?
Kalo ternyata suami/istri kita tidak sesuai dengan harapan kita...lalu kita bilang...yah sudah jodohnya...

bukankah ini hanya kalimat pembenaran supaya hati dan jiwa tidak 'terlalu' kecewa'?

Kita diberikan kebebasan untuk memilih jalan hidup kita. Dan semua kembali kepada kita bagaimana menyikapi pilihan2 yang telah kita lakukan.

Kalo pilihan kita bagus...dan sesuai atau bahkan melebihi apa yang kita idamkan...kita berada di surga....
Tapi bila sebaliknya..dan kita tidak puas..dan merasa pahit dan kecewa...kita hidup dalam neraka...

so surga dan neraka......state of mind....kita yang memilih ingin berada di bagian yang mana.

Kita bisa berada dalam keadaan kecewa, marah, pahit akan situasi dan keadaan..akan orang2 di sekitar kita....dan we are constantly in self pity mode...WHY? WHY this happen to me? WHY the other person/other people do what they did to me? what did i do wrong?
dah kayak encyclopedia aja....why, what, and so on..and so on...

Butuh hati dan jiwa yang lapang dan kesadaran akan perasaan dan pikiran kita. Baik maupun buruk...kita tidak dapat menguasai atau menentukan bagaimana orang lain bersikap/berbuat/berkata2........hanya kita sendiri yang punya otoritas penuh untuk pikiran dan perasaan kita.

Kebanyakan dari kita( termasuk gue sendiri) lebih mudah menjadi reaktif.......kita harus belajar untuk lebih bijak dalam bereaksi terhadap input2 dari skitar kita..jelas, hal yang tidak dapat kita kontrol. Yang bisa kita kontrol bagaiamana kita meresponnya....

Dan sekarang.....gue masih belajar...dan belajar..dan belajarrrrrr....oh Lord, help me ....