flat line

this day......

flat line

i only hear....tiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttt

our days

dear ior

tribute to our days together.........

love
yuli

mixed emotions

confusion.....perplexed.....mixed up...torn

wru

where are you?


i miss you.........

im home

aku sudah sampai di rumah....

i love you no matter what they say.....i will fight so hard for us

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

What Kind of Coffee Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofcoffeeareyouquiz/


And my result:


***You are a Black Coffee***


At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable

At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty

You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it

Your caffeine addiction level: high

At the beginning

* for my love....in the end i want to be standing at the beggining with you*


We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin' on
Starting out on a journey

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'

In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning
With you .......................................



(sung by Richard Marx and Donna Lewis)

lutju

3 minggu ini and counting, mungkin sampe 4-6 minggu ke depan, Cerlihh my sidekick is staying at my house. Secaraaa....visa buat nyusul hubbynya di Jerman sana belum keluar dr embassy. Juga, mengingat kebutuhan dia untuk tidur setiap hari MINIMAL 10 JAM (ck..ck...ck),sedangkan jika dia tinggal bersama kakaknya di Serpong, tentunya tidak mungkin tercapai karena harus tiba di kantor paling tidak jam 9 pagi. Yah, akhirnya jadilah Cerlihh sebagai penghuni baru di rumah gue. Dan hari ini, sudah 2 kali dia mengucapkan kata 'lutju', pertama dia kagum karena bisa download file dan simpan di desktop --> dibilang 'lutju'. Kedua, mnurutnya email address dia di kantor 'lutju'--> agak2 aneh lagi ck ck ck.......memang dia LUTJU hahaah

Dan tentunya, ini bukan hal baru sih, secara dia sering nginep juga sebelumnya. Well, hari2 belakangan ini jadi lebih banyak tawa and cekikikan sih akhirnya. Soalnya, kan kalo cuma bertiga sama si mbah n adikku yah sunyi sepi aja rumah.

Makin kagum juga sama keantikan sahabatku yang satu ini, udah tau sih keaneh2annnya..tapi makin geleng2 kepala aja. 2 hari yang lalu, dia tiba2 termenung n sepertinya berpikir keras. Gue tanya, 'napa sih?' dan jawabannya di luar dugaan (bikin geleng2 n ketawa sih jadinya) "gue lagi mempertimbangkan, mau mandi, boker atau tidur aja?' Gubraaaaaaaaaaaksssssssssssssssssss...............itu aja dipertimbangkaannnnnnnnnnnn, dengan emosi langsung gue balas ' itu adalah kegaitan yang berurutan, bukan untuk dipertimbangkan mana yang akan dilakukan'
halaaahhhhhhhh...kasian Kuncup....perlu penataran banyakkkkk buat bininya ini nanti huaah ..huaahh..........

Nah, semalam ada kejadian seru lagi. Menjelang jam 12 malam, gue dah nyaris tertidur, and si cerlih jelas sudah lelap ntah di alam mana. Tau2, terdengar dialog2 gaya sinetron di kamar sebelah. Oh dear, si adikku sedang bertengkar lagi dgn pacarnya...padahal kalo gak salah inget, hari minggu yang lalu pun sudah dilakukan. Kok gak bosen ye?hihihi....Yah sebodo deh, tapi kok ini makin lama makin seru, hampir 1 jam masih aja si adik merepet terus..makin heboh, dari ngantuk sampe jadi ikutan deg2an hihihi...Cerlih mengira, ada ceramah dr mesjid di belakang rumah hiahiahai.....ternyata!!! Akhirnya,kita berdua jadi seger, dan cekikikan plus penasaran, ribut kenapaa sih...yah nguping2 dikit laaaa....sungguh lutju adikku itu...

Hasilnya, tadi pagi kita kesiangaaannnn............yah Praise the Lord, jalanan tidak terlalu macet, so sampai kantor pun gak terlalu telat...errr, maksudnya gak terlalu lama telatnya dari telat yang biasa gue lakukan tiap hari hahaha.....

yah, sebentar lagi bisa pulang....kerjaan sih masih banyak..tapi kok gak mood yaa....padahal deadline besok....ahhh que sera sera...tar kali malem kejar setoran aja dr rumah..tokh tinggal copy, paste, replace, save....voila..DONE...

drained

drained....

it's been a rollercoaster week of emotion....

at work...so many things to finalized, minimum (just to tone down the word NO) support and or coordination from the client side. And until today, Friday that is!!! still lots of things that are with status 'OPEN'.....so difficult to catch these people!!!

in my sentimental life,.........just wanna be close.....come home soon!!!
hope you'll understand that sometimes i just can't help being so miserable for missing you, eventhough its not yet 24 hours passed by since we last talked.........

no more

There will be no more goodbyes
I am here to love you
I am here to stay
No matter what the world may say
There will be no more goodbyes

Destiny

I see your face in the sunrise everyday
I hear your voice on every melody
I feel your love with every breath i take
Destiny has brought you closer to me.....

Destiny has decided to bring our hearts together
Throughout the seasons
For whatever reason
Destiny has decided we belong to forever


taken from "kembar keempat" by Sekar Ayu Asmara

Free

To be free is to be yourself....

To change the world is to be yourself.....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I got this in my sms inbox from a very dear friend of mine earlier today.
And, once again i am strengthened, every problem, conflicts, miscommunication, misunderstandings have a way out.


I have the tendency to please everybody, avoiding confrontations so not to waste unnecessary negative energy release. This is particularly for matters related to heart, family relations, friendships. Well, as for professional environment, i am a completely different person :D.


Thus, its been years of swallowing ego, outburst (although sometime i can't help not to though), again just for the sake of 'keeping peace'.
So, that keeping peace for everybody else, is making me not at peace..........
And means...i am not free.....to have enough guts to do/decide what i want to do, what i believe, because i am afraid it will not please everyone.....so i am not free....i am not happy....I am not myself....

Today....i decided.....i want to be free.....i want to be myself....to change the world, is to change myself..........

My loved ones.............i am sorry.......


ps: dw, thanks a lot.....!!! you know how grateful i am..its not the first time, will not be the last time either, i'll be needing one of your wisdom........

i am so proud of you......

fly

i will fly into your arms

and

be with you

till the end of time

aneh

Kereta baru saja berangkat, sebelahku kosong, rasanya aneh seharusnya kamu di sampingku

tight

'i love you...i love you' then you held me so tight like you would never let me go....

hearts and thoughts

i am with you always,
whenever we're apart like now
where i am there you will be
where you are there i will be
in our hearts and thoughts

cenut cenut

Seharusnya.....sibuk kerja, apalagi 'To Do List' ku masih berstatus OPEN smua (eh baru satu sih yang berhasil dikerjakan yaitu mengirimkan email Minutes of Meeting, 2 mins job hehe) , belum pindah status jadi DONE. Gak terlalu banyak sih sisanya (yah skitar 80% dr yang harus gue lakukan hari ini sihhhhh), tapi sampe jam 14.07 ini, baru file nya aja yang terbuka (kalo ini sih udah dr sejak sampai di kantor pagi tadi hihi)

Tentunya ini disebabkan oleh suasana menjelang liburan lebaran yang tinggal sebentar lagi (kayak lagu nih rhyme-nya)....plus, ntah kenapa 2 hari ini, gigi mulai cenut cenut....know the culprit already sih....emang gigi geraham pertama di bgn atas selalu bermasalah dari dulu. :( (sigh) Nyitnyit, my personal dentist pasti dah bosen ngutak ngatik gigi yang itu itu saja. Mbaaaknya, siap-siap!!! gue akan ke tempat loe asap!!

Then, your question would be! "Lah, loe ngapain aja dari pagi di kantor?"
Answer, yah selain menikmati cenut cenut gigiku ini, browsing2 lah yaaaaaa....begitu banyak yang harus dibaca di net, sampe bingung eh kelabakan....kebanyakan tab yang kubuka n belum tuntas semua dibaca hehhe....

Sedikit consolation supaya gak dibilang gak kerja sama skali, eh melakukan kegiatan yang ada hubungan dengan pekerjaan. Barusan si oom wong menanyakan soal setting config system, so yah ada guna sedikit lah otakku hari ini.

Harus segera.....berbuat sesuatu, yang berhubungan dgn 'TO DO List' tersebut tentunya!
Babe tadi telpon, katanya mau ke sini jam 4an...wataaaaahhh......semoga gak jadi dtg deh dia.
Lagian, si Lena ngajakin ngopi di Plangi tar jam 6, halaah...kburu gak yaa??? (mengingat kebijakan Bang Yos tentang system transportasi di JKT :(( ...i'll write my frustation about traffic in another post!)

Meanwhile.....seriously..lets get back to work!!

i am so happy

your hand never leaves mine
you said 'i am so happy tonight....i can't stop smiling with you by myside'