Thursday, November 16, 2006

lutju


3 minggu ini and counting, mungkin sampe 4-6 minggu ke depan, Cerlihh my sidekick is staying at my house. Secaraaa....visa buat nyusul hubbynya di Jerman sana belum keluar dr embassy. Juga, mengingat kebutuhan dia untuk tidur setiap hari MINIMAL 10 JAM (ck..ck...ck),sedangkan jika dia tinggal bersama kakaknya di Serpong, tentunya tidak mungkin tercapai karena harus tiba di kantor paling tidak jam 9 pagi. Yah, akhirnya jadilah Cerlihh sebagai penghuni baru di rumah gue. Dan hari ini, sudah 2 kali dia mengucapkan kata 'lutju', pertama dia kagum karena bisa download file dan simpan di desktop --> dibilang 'lutju'. Kedua, mnurutnya email address dia di kantor 'lutju'--> agak2 aneh lagi ck ck ck.......memang dia LUTJU hahaah

Dan tentunya, ini bukan hal baru sih, secara dia sering nginep juga sebelumnya. Well, hari2 belakangan ini jadi lebih banyak tawa and cekikikan sih akhirnya. Soalnya, kan kalo cuma bertiga sama si mbah n adikku yah sunyi sepi aja rumah.

Makin kagum juga sama keantikan sahabatku yang satu ini, udah tau sih keaneh2annnya..tapi makin geleng2 kepala aja. 2 hari yang lalu, dia tiba2 termenung n sepertinya berpikir keras. Gue tanya, 'napa sih?' dan jawabannya di luar dugaan (bikin geleng2 n ketawa sih jadinya) "gue lagi mempertimbangkan, mau mandi, boker atau tidur aja?' Gubraaaaaaaaaaaksssssssssssssssssss...............itu aja dipertimbangkaannnnnnnnnnnn, dengan emosi langsung gue balas ' itu adalah kegaitan yang berurutan, bukan untuk dipertimbangkan mana yang akan dilakukan'
halaaahhhhhhhh...kasian Kuncup....perlu penataran banyakkkkk buat bininya ini nanti huaah ..huaahh..........

Nah, semalam ada kejadian seru lagi. Menjelang jam 12 malam, gue dah nyaris tertidur, and si cerlih jelas sudah lelap ntah di alam mana. Tau2, terdengar dialog2 gaya sinetron di kamar sebelah. Oh dear, si adikku sedang bertengkar lagi dgn pacarnya...padahal kalo gak salah inget, hari minggu yang lalu pun sudah dilakukan. Kok gak bosen ye?hihihi....Yah sebodo deh, tapi kok ini makin lama makin seru, hampir 1 jam masih aja si adik merepet terus..makin heboh, dari ngantuk sampe jadi ikutan deg2an hihihi...Cerlih mengira, ada ceramah dr mesjid di belakang rumah hiahiahai.....ternyata!!! Akhirnya,kita berdua jadi seger, dan cekikikan plus penasaran, ribut kenapaa sih...yah nguping2 dikit laaaa....sungguh lutju adikku itu...

Hasilnya, tadi pagi kita kesiangaaannnn............yah Praise the Lord, jalanan tidak terlalu macet, so sampai kantor pun gak terlalu telat...errr, maksudnya gak terlalu lama telatnya dari telat yang biasa gue lakukan tiap hari hahaha.....

yah, sebentar lagi bisa pulang....kerjaan sih masih banyak..tapi kok gak mood yaa....padahal deadline besok....ahhh que sera sera...tar kali malem kejar setoran aja dr rumah..tokh tinggal copy, paste, replace, save....voila..DONE...



Friday, November 10, 2006

drained

drained....

it's been a rollercoaster week of emotion....

at work...so many things to finalized, minimum (just to tone down the word NO) support and or coordination from the client side. And until today, Friday that is!!! still lots of things that are with status 'OPEN'.....so difficult to catch these people!!!

in my sentimental life,.........just wanna be close.....come home soon!!!
hope you'll understand that sometimes i just can't help being so miserable for missing you, eventhough its not yet 24 hours passed by since we last talked.........

Thursday, November 02, 2006

no more

There will be no more goodbyes
I am here to love you
I am here to stay
No matter what the world may say
There will be no more goodbyes

Destiny

I see your face in the sunrise everyday
I hear your voice on every melody
I feel your love with every breath i take
Destiny has brought you closer to me.....

Destiny has decided to bring our hearts together
Throughout the seasons
For whatever reason
Destiny has decided we belong to forever


taken from "kembar keempat" by Sekar Ayu Asmara

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Free

To be free is to be yourself....

To change the world is to be yourself.....

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I got this in my sms inbox from a very dear friend of mine earlier today.
And, once again i am strengthened, every problem, conflicts, miscommunication, misunderstandings have a way out.


I have the tendency to please everybody, avoiding confrontations so not to waste unnecessary negative energy release. This is particularly for matters related to heart, family relations, friendships. Well, as for professional environment, i am a completely different person :D.


Thus, its been years of swallowing ego, outburst (although sometime i can't help not to though), again just for the sake of 'keeping peace'.
So, that keeping peace for everybody else, is making me not at peace..........
And means...i am not free.....to have enough guts to do/decide what i want to do, what i believe, because i am afraid it will not please everyone.....so i am not free....i am not happy....I am not myself....

Today....i decided.....i want to be free.....i want to be myself....to change the world, is to change myself..........

My loved ones.............i am sorry.......


ps: dw, thanks a lot.....!!! you know how grateful i am..its not the first time, will not be the last time either, i'll be needing one of your wisdom........